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I used to count the days since I had last seen Ben I used to count the days since I had last seen Ben. Then they became too many to count. 
So I started counting the months, and then the years. 
Losing him, my brother, and my Debbie all within such a short period of time given me such deep heartache, but also understanding.

Life is short. 

We stress so much about things that don’t matter in the end. Possessions, careers, chores. 

But what matters most is this:

Love the Lord your God will all your heart, mind and soul; and love your neighbor as yourself.

Forgive when wronged and ask forgiveness when you are in the wrong.

Laugh as loud as you can. 
Dance. Sing.
Live. 

Grief has a tendency to weigh us down and make us not want to live.
But there’s still so much time left (even if just days, weeks, months, or decades) to live and love with our whole hearts. 

And then, we’ll see them again. I, for one, would love to tell them of the beautiful adventures I’ve had and the people I’ve loved - not just walk in and say “I stopped living because you did.” 
That’s not what they would want from us, and not what Jesus wants FOR us. 

So today, I choose life. 

I choose joy. 

And, I choose love.

#grief #griefjourney #widowlife #siblingloss #LoveNeverFails
To all of my friends and family who knew and loved To all of my friends and family who knew and loved my sweet Deb, she is so missed already. 

If you’re in the Portland area and want to come celebrate her life with us we’d love to have you this Saturday, July 19th at 1:30 pm.

Life will never be the same without her 💔And one more reason I cant wait to go to heaven 
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How is my oldest boy 15 already? 🥹 It’s been an How is my oldest boy 15 already? 🥹 

It’s been an amazing journey, love you son!!
There are times where we feel like we’re toiling i There are times where we feel like we’re toiling in vain. 

We planted and day after day we water, feed, and till the ground. But it feels like it never changes.

You save a dollar here and a dollar there, and think it’s insignificant. But I promise you, it’s not. 

Everything you do matters. 

If you’re sitting on a bed of discouragement today, I’m just here to remind you to keep going.

Don’t sink deeper into the feelings that it’ll never get better. 

It will. 

One day you’re going to look up from the ground you’ve been tilling and see a beautiful, extravagant, gigantic tree that is healthy and flourishing because of how you nurtured it as a seedling. 

No matter what you’re going through, it’ll be ok. 

#motivation #mindsetmatters #mindsetiseverything #keepgoing💪 #yourestrongerthanyouthink
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